sometimes i feel like a pathetic chronically online digital "artist" when i try to paint irl paintings and they look like shit.

practice makes perfect, but this is quite an expensive endeavor. i am extremely frugal. no wonder i've been a digital artist when failure costs nothing.

i should get used to that in this hobby a pile of euro notes burns like purgatory. just because i am too fucking stupid to paint. it's my personal stupidity tax.