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i don't want to legalize child pornography or child abuse, but to destigmatize pedophilia to the point where people can be open about it so that better research can be done to genetically eradicate pedophilia. there should be some other cure than suicide or being killed.

i am an openly teleiophilic pedophile. i am a person who is attracted to teenagers and adults. i don't feel the need to hide it, because i am who i am, and it's exhausting to live a double life. i never chose this. i think people who think it's a choice are stupid. why on earth would i choose to be one of the most hated people in the world and choose an attraction whose practical implementation will lead to a crime?

i realized this when i was 16. i noticed in myself how i was getting older, but at the same time the minimum age for my crushes remained pretty low. i looked up what the diagnostic criteria for pedophilia are and at a minimum that includes being 16 and having an attraction to someone 5 years younger for over half a year. eventually, i got older, i filled every bracket. since then, my attraction has not gone anywhere.

i used to feel conflicted about this and denied it to myself because ironically, i myself was abused by pedophiles when i was a minor. well, that's life, what the hell can i do about it. i can't change past events and present interests.

honestly, the attraction feels absurd, insane. what the hell do you mean i'm going to be in my 20s, 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s, 90s and eventually with my last breaths, interested in teens in addition to adults.

that interest is not related to me being mentally behind, so they would be immature in personality and easily manipulated, but the young body itself is just as arousing as the adult body. that's just it. young people are beautiful. it's the beauty that fascinates, not so much the innocence. they are angelic.

i've received like 1938048 death threats, so i am desensitized of them. i also know that no matter what, even if whole world hates me (and they do), i haven't done anything wrong just by feeling emotions that i didn't choose for myself. it's morally questionable to wish death on someone for a reason that they have no control over.

with these arguments i can justify my openness.