"omg so he had to put up with a lot of shit? why has he been quiet about it?" because you're always asking people to shut the fuck up about anything bad happening in their lives



the fucking thing that keeps pissing me off is when you see some middle-class circle-jerking twats moaning loudly that "so no damn why on earth has he kept all this shit he's experienced in his life inside? why did he kill himself? what was wrong?" so was it all due to the whole fucking ultra-individualistic shit culture where everyone is expected to manage their own lives and if they can't, then we just indulge and hope that loser just kills himself. natural selection.

then when it's a practical necessity precisely because of people like you. you demand so much from people that there's no fucking time to even recover or heal from anything traumatic. go to school, go to work, go everywhere fucking to do your duties so you don't end up homeless and freeze to death. then when a person can't stand all this shit, they have to vent it somewhere, and then there are two options. either you talk to the people, meaning people ask you to shut the fuck up and kill yourself because you're just a fucking burden to them even when you're talking about natural grief, like death, or you go to a therapist who says the obvious because they just see you as a cash machine.

so instead of starting to vent to anyone, they just keep your mouth shut because every damn time they lose trust in this fucking human species that has completely lost its humanity. a truly hardened, depressed and suicidal person is thus a genuine misanthrope. first you feel like you need someone, then through disappointments you learn that you don't, but does life have any meaning if you don't identify with anyone? that's right.

is there anything else than me? do i have to live for myself? for my own egoistical gain? life is survival? survival of me having as much power and resources as possible?

it's so paradoxical that these motherfuckers always preach that being selfish is not good personality trait and everybody always complain narcissistic behaviour. but this zeitgeist forces all of us to be narcissistic. yet y'all don't have any lack of self awareness, that you ain't that you are no more morally superior than anyone else. the weak perish in the path of life, right? oh, does this sound terrible? look in the mirror.